On the twelfth day of Advocare...&& the thirteenth

I can do it...I can do it...

I will only make this challenge as good as I want to. The past two days I have not worked as hard as I could of. Am I super upset about it? No not at all, no one said this is going to be the easiest thing in the whole world and I have to be super strict. I am doing this whole thing for me. I am learning as I go. Advocare products are just a tool to help me become successful. I am a huge fan of the Berry replacement shake, and if you throw in fresh fruit it changes the taste into something that tastes exactly like Smoothie King! Yesterday I had strawberries and blackberries in my smoothie. Today was probably the winner!! I added banana, yup I loved it! Instead of taking all the supplements all day long I'm taking the majority of them in the morning which really gets my body jumpstarted and then my final pack at lunch. During this part of the challenge I'm going to cut back on the fruit and eat more veggies so I can really try to maximize the weightless that is available. After reading many testimonials, the majority of people loose their maximum amount of weight during the last 14 days of the challenge.

Its okay to be scared...

I haven't weighed yet...Am I scared? Yes. Why you may ask? Well, because I am so overweight. I have never liked getting on a scale. I find it to be very intimidating and find that if the numbers do not go down as quick as I would like, I feel like I'm wasting my time.. All my life the scale has always been there to make me feel defeated or to just upset me. I am slowing getting over this. I don't look like I weigh what the scale tells me but at the end of the day that number on that screen is what I weigh. No matter what. Does that number mean something? Yes of course it does! I mean you have to be a certain weight to go skydiving! (I was just giving an example, I don't wanna do it) I guess what I'm trying to say is this...That number, while it may be large or small or not what you exactly want it to be. You are beautiful no matter what number it is. I know people who weigh 115-250 lbs and each one of them are beautiful! The society that we live make us to believe we have to be a size 2-4 and weigh less than 150 and while they might be nice. I will never be that girl. I don't want to be that girl. I want to be myself, only I want to be HEALTHY.